September 29, 2014

Do what you love, Love what you do

I got a little bit distracted recently by business stuffs. I don't find I'm suitable to do business. A friend told me I'd better do research because I have the knack of doing it. I might acknowledge that I don't have business instinct. I don't often negotiate for my profits.

Recently I find out that I need money more than ever. My family is poor by a variety of standards and one of my goals is to bring my whole family out of poverty. Besides, I also love coding. I miss coding also, cause I don't write code recently. I got addicted to coding. And I was wondering whether I can make enough money out of coding. I got stucked

And I came across an article of a Japanese genius. He spends the whole day gazing at computer screens, looking for moving patterns. He then trades with his own money and becomes multimillionaire just by trading. He's a star. It's astonishing to know that he even doesn't trade for money. To him, doing trading itself is fulfilling. He doesn't need other people to encourage him working. He do it without much considerations, without fears of losing money. Trading by itself is full of pressure and it influences deeply to our emotions. Yet B.N.F somehow can manage to work all days through it. Moreover, he lives a frugal life. He doesn't use money for his own sakes. His largest spending is his own mansion without nearly nothing. he lives an He just does what he loves and I find it intriguing. He is respectable and he is just amazing.

I just understand a simple truth. Money doesn't come to people who love money. It sometimes does come bringing troubles and misfortunes. Money is mischief. However it is very generous to people who don't love it. It comes to people who don't work for it. In short, it comes to people who do what they love.

I become less stressful of making more money and more focus on doing what I love. Ultimately, we are happy by doing what we love.

Sometimes it takes long time to just understand simple truths, but to me this time's understanding is precious.

September 6, 2014

The unexotic underclass

The impact of the article upon me is so great that I decided to put the title of the article title of this post. Similar to the author, I always think that we as educated citizens is putting our mental energy to wrong problems. As for me, I spend my days and nights watching our video servers. Of course our company philosophy is to bring television to the internet and deliver contents to a subculture community which is great, but in reality it doesn't solve any problem which helps progress our civilized. What we're doing is to entertain people, bring fun to people. We are living in a different world bring a mass-produced products to people, forgetting people in the lower ranks.

Do we need to care for people of underclasses? Their life is their choice anyway.

September 4, 2014

Hacker Spirit

10:31 am and I should get to work now. If I don't get out this coffee shop right now, I might miss the next train. However, some thoughts keep wandering around and I think I should jot it down to let it get out of my head rather than let them wandering randomly in my brain. Cleaning the brain by writing down is good.

Yesterday, I just tried to amaze my friend by showing them my proxy. My country government is implementing a kind of firewall to block exotic press or blogs. They used to block domestic DNS requests and I instructed my family to use DNS servers out of country border. Recently, the policy becomes stricter and administrators start looking into the content of the transmitted packets. For HTTP packets, they exclude packet with Host header in the ban list. Therefore my father at home cannot connect to several blogs. I help him walk around the firewall by using a proxy server abroad, which serves requests with different Host header. And amazingly it's work! The first time I saw it's work I was amazed myself. I felt powerful. I felt strong. It seems that nobody can block me. And I shown the setting to my friends. The reaction is guessable. Nobody found it interesting :))

I start thinking about Hacker Spirit. People hack for fun. Hacking is an intellectual acts. People do it because it satisfies his/her curiosity. They understand the behaviors of stuffs they're working on. Somehow they feel powerful like me too. And that's all. True hacker, in my opinion, don't do something to amaze people. It's childish sake. He do hacking for his own desire of learning. From this viewpoints, I was childish also. And I start realizing that I don't hack a lot these days. In fact, I stop writing code for around a year.

I want to return to the time when I was a "true hacker", who explores things for interests. I want to have idle time to modify codes, see how it changes, and feel its powers.

I would write about coding in another blog. Now it's time for running for the train.

September 3, 2014


Finally I finished the long and headache project. We finally move our network to new network with higher throughput. With this new network, we are able to handle traffic growth in at least 4 to 5 years ahead, which means we eliminate a lot of worries. Though, there are still servers left in the old network, due to the time constraint and the incapability of myself, as well as several external pressures, but I think we can put everything in order in 2 months (which is not bad I think).

At least I have idle time to rest and think about my own life. One of several things I wanted to do after finishing the project is to be idle to look at the sky and do nothing. I commit myself to this plan and for a week, before going to work, I've spent from 30 minutes to 1 hour, sitting in a local Doutor Coffee shop doing everything I want (including this blog post). The air in the coffee shop is pure so I can breath easily. The background noise is tolerable. My mind is always wandering around even when I focus on tasks, therefore I prefer a place with some noise so my wandering mind can be caught by the noise and doesn't go so far. The music is good too. Sometimes they broadcast some of my favorite songs. The bright is great. My house now is lack of bright (cause I have a limited budget for housing) so I always feel weak sitting at home. At Doutor, I feel my body is woke up. The bright forces my body to think that it's morning (it's even noon). I don't feel tired going to work as I used to feel during the project. I begin to realize how bad influence a long and difficult project can give to me.

I still have residual stress but it is in the range of my endurance so I'm alright living with stress. However, somehow I feel that stress is leaving out of my way so I can live stress-free life.

The tranquility here is great.

September 2, 2014

Mental Model

My friend insists on using rails if we want to do something together. I don't have any argument against rails though, but I don't understand why does he want to use rails. It's time I recognize one idea: mental model.

Mental model is something we build for time. It's the way we perceive the world. If something happens not to be similar with what you often do something, you feel strange. When you were a child, your experience is still so little that you don't consider something natural, your mind is open to everything. When you grow up, your experience grows also, you don't consider something as it is but thinking that everything has its own way of existence. So you form a mental model about the world. The stronger your mental model is, the harder you are open to new thing.

At the first time, I also question a lot about rails. I complained about the installation of execJS while I still don't write any Javascript code. All I did is not to understand the way rails doing, but complain. My mental model was also too strong for me to be open to new thing (not really new though). In other word, I was bias. My friend was bias too. He insists on using tools he is familiar with, stating many obscure and weak reasons.

It's good to have your own mental model because it would be a help in understanding this world faster. Because when you have things to look up, you save the time to do analysis. However, I also learn a hard lesson that my mental model is there to help me look up information / solution faster, not the only way to do thing, and therefore I should be careful using my own mental model to justify others.

Just a random thought for an early morning.